Sun Will Come Out folded card by Everything Little Miss

This post was supposed to be about BlogHer. I promised. And I’m sorry if you were looking forward to it. I scheduled it into my calendar today, but (a) ran out of time and (b) couldn’t wrap my head around it. Right now, I should be making dinner. But I couldn’t bring myself to BlogHer or dinner without sitting down and getting this out here, in the open, to you, to me.

Long story short? I surrender. I put up my hands. I give up the cape. I wave the white flag. (Insert all other similar analogies here)

As it turns out, I’m not Superwoman, and it has to be OK right now. I have clients to coach and Spring to co-host and an e-course to launch (in October, we think! stay tuned!) and I. Just. Can’t. Do. Everything.

That’s not true. I could. I could choose this to keep working this way. That would also be making the choice to be constantly tired, and mostly cranky, and considering a lunch break of more than 30 minutes a rare luxury. And I absolutely, positively go against that choice.

Remember when, about 6 weeks ago, I talked all about what was in my head & what was making my brain explode & how I was totally overwhelmed? After I wrote it I was able to own it, but yet I find myself here. Again. Thank all that is holy that I started working with Thekla again on time management, and really discovering what needs to happen in my business, at this level. I’m so, so, so (so! so! so!) very thankful that my client load is at a maximum and the consultation calls continue to roll in, but now comes the part that’s even tougher than getting the clients: managing it all. Managing it to my limits, my needs, my energy level,  my expectations & what I put on my plate. And the big realization here is that, well, I don’t really know what that is. I might think I know, but I don’t. And why don’t I know?

Because I’m new here.

It’s only been 144 days since I’ve been a full-time coach, and what I thought I could handle isn’t the reality. I am, however, taking notice, & am getting a sense now as to how many client sessions I want to conduct each day (3 maximum), and how late is too late for me to coach (9p Eastern), and that I need a Partner in Crime to manage my nudging and billing, which is taking way too much brain power now that I’m juggling (heading to spreadsheet, counting, counting, counting…) 47 clients.

Wait, did I just say 47 clients?!

I totally did. Wow. Whoa. And other “W” words. Yes, Wonderful, too.

I honestly didn’t realize that, but between my group session clients and my private clients, I have 47 on the current roster. No wonder I’m logging about 60-70 hours/week. Ah. And thank the good lord,  I’ve already cut off working with new clients ’til after Labor Day, but maybe I need to extend that date out, too.

I promise I’ll keep figuring this out, and cluing you guys in, and bringing you along for the ride. The most wonderful piece of all this is knowing that you guys are here for me, supporting me, cheering me on, showing up whether I blog twice a week or two dozen times a week (right?). And don’t even think that I’ll be neglecting this space at all – I love it too, too much.

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