My Unconventional Life
Today, I feel safe, which seem both right & odd all at once. How can leaving “stability” feel safe? Why do I feel comforted & warm & happy & good? Where are the Vampires, making me be fearful of a life that I create, scaring me with thoughts of failure & bankruptcy? Why am I bright & smiley today? Why all this pride & excitement & love & tenderness instead of doubt & fear & hesitation & dread?
This new life, this unconventional life, doesn’t look safe on paper, but I’ve never felt so sure of anything ever before. OK, I take that back – I felt exactly that when I married Luke: Calm. Peaceful. Happy. Right. Safe. The perfect fit. Something that helps complete me. This day is just like that day. It all feels perfect no matter what unfolds, & nothing can go Wrong because the thing that I’m doing is nothing but wholly, fully, thoroughly Right.
I’m creating my unconventional life, but it’s a life that fills me with purpose & passion & possibilities. It saddens me that that’s considered unconventional. And here I am, on that quest: To bring The Unconventional Life – one filled with purpose & passion & possibilities – to every creative soul. To discover what it means for them, & to be a catalyst in making it happen. Maybe that’s why I feel so sure: Because it’s beyond me. Achieving this goal & breaking free of my corporate shackles not only serves me, but it serves everyone else I’m here to help along the way. I think this is what really gives me comfort & joy, & makes me feel that I’m doing The Right Thing, The Smart Thing & The Best Thing.
Here I stand, on the other side of a door that I closed & another one that I opened. Me. Myself. And while there is a sliver of fear, that is more peace than I’ve ever felt. I did that. I created that. I am oh so proud of me & My Unconventional Life.
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March 22nd, 2010 at 2:46 am
How sad it is indeed. But I'm so happy that you are getting to live your unconventional life!
March 22nd, 2010 at 2:51 am
Me too, Alisha! And even if I can't make this An Unconventional World, I can encourage some Unconventional Lives, & that's enough for me
March 22nd, 2010 at 5:16 am
Gah! It's so awesome!! You are living the dream, girl, and you are going to be such a success!!! So proud of you for making it happen for yourself. Thanks for being such an inspiration to the rest of us!
March 22nd, 2010 at 6:01 am
I can only think of one thing to say: Woooohooooooooooo!
March 22nd, 2010 at 6:15 am
Who needs conventional when you can have this:
Unconventional:
Main Entry: advanced
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: ahead in position, time, manner
Synonyms: avant-garde, breakthrough, cutting-edge, excellent, exceptional, extreme, first, foremost, forward, higher, late, leading, leading-edge, liberal, precocious, progressive, radical, state-of-the-art*, unconventional
Still so excited for you!
March 22nd, 2010 at 3:16 pm
I just hopped over from Ivy League Insecurities. What a wonderful post. Like a breath of fress air that has made its way to me. I hope it is infectious. I sometimes feel I could use a little breaking free of corporate shackles. Looking forward to reading more!
March 22nd, 2010 at 3:36 pm
I vote YES on Proposition Unconventional Life! Mine (officially) starts in just ten days!!! Praise Gaga!
Ride that wave of unconventionality and uniquity. Everyone is watching, awestruck.
March 22nd, 2010 at 3:54 pm
@Tiffany – You're gonna do it too, lady – & I'll be there cheering so super loud! Thanks always for being such a fan – it means so very much to me!
@Angelique – I'll take your Woooooohoooooooooooooo & raise you a Heeeeeeellllllllllll Yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhh!
@Carmen – Love those synonyms. Love! Thanks so much for taking the time to look that up. Oh, I got chills!
@Celeste – Welcome, & thanks for the kudos! I am CONVINCED, even though I don't know you personally, that you can find a way out of those corporate shackles. Everyone can – it's just about formulating a plan that works for your current life, having patience, & taking a baby step every single day to execute that plan. I make it sound super easy, but it's possibly the hardest thing I've ever done (& continue to do) – but I wouldn't trade it for anything!
@Alexandra – If Obama can be President & the US can have Universal Health Care, then getting Prop Unconventional Life to pass should be a no-brainer. Praise RuPaul!